Balance please!

I'm so unbalanced that it starts to be tiring. I wish I finally knew what I want. I have some three reversals of opinion a day in average. The options I consider range from Big 4 through medium enterprises to non-profits. Also the short-term goal to find a part-time job distracts me from the plan to go for a traineeship in autumn. I simply prefer to behave as I'm staying because what if I'll really have to stay? I could be unemployed if I did nothing now. And then, how to find a good job abroad? I don't look for a culture experience (been there) or just some work experience abroad (done that). I've lost my faith in @ traineeships. I'm not sure if I'm willing to take the risk again. It is quite likely that my experience with @ in Egypt you know who definitely cured my foolish notion about the organization. Plus I haven't seen there many good TNs anyway. On the other hand staying in Prague for the rest of my life? Scary.